Was Blind But Now I See

4th Day Letter’s 5th Anniversary


Has your spiritual life ever been like the seed that fell among thorns? Mine has been. In Luke’s Gospel, Luke 8:4-15, we read this message: “As for the seed that fell among thorns, they are the ones who have heard, but as they go along, they are choked by the anxieties and riches and pleasures of life.” Are you that person? Have you been choked by the anxieties, riches and pleasures of life? Five years ago, before I began writing these weekly messages, I was that person. Hopefully you and I both have progressed in our spiritual journey over the last five years. Read more in today’s 5th Anniversary Edition!


On September 22, 2011, I wrote an email to 15 friends who I attended church with. I had a narrowly focused message back then and a very small audience. At that time, I never intended for more than a onetime message. Also, at that time, I had no idea what God had in store for my life. God’s plan it appears was quite different than mine. Today 4th Day Letters, by God’s grace, is read by thousands of Christians of many denominations on every continent in the world except Antarctica.

Since that September day in 2011, I have written 260 4th day letters, consisting of some 312,000 words. This is the equivalent of more than five novels. I spend approximately 6 hours praying for, researching and writing each letter resulting in a total of 1,560 hours of preparation or about 39 weeks at 40 hours per week. What changed in my life in 2011 to cause me to want to do this and what does it have to do with you?

For the answer to that question let’s go back to Luke 8:4-15. Here Jesus told us that “those who had heard the word but continued to be choked out by anxieties, riches and the pleasures of life” were the seeds that fell among the thorns. Like I said I was one of those seeds. I was a lifelong Catholic. My faith was always important to me. I had a deep belief in Jesus Christ, however my actions at times and the way I lived my life would not have shown that. God began to show me that my profession of faith was hollow. There were things that needed to change in my life. Does any of this sound familiar to your own life?


Luke also had this to say in Luke 16:13: “No servant can serve two masters. He will either hate one and love the other, or be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.” As I understand this teaching, mammon means so much more than just money, it means to “entrust.” In other words, we must ask ourselves what things do we place our trust in other than God. Do we place our trust in wealth, fame, fortune or other pleasures of life? We can’t be devoted to them and to God. For most of my life I tried to do both. It doesn’t work. What things have you placed your trust in?

So many things have happened over these past five years. I have written on so many different topics. Also during these past 5 years I have had many changes in my life. I lost my mom, lost my sight, was diagnosed with MS, saw many good friends pass away, gained a son-in-law and several new grandchildren, I wrote the Parable Of The Broken Door from which Broken Door Ministries gets its name and from which the book THE BROKEN DOOR is based. More than anything else during this time I began to realize that it is when we share our brokenness with others and attest to God’s mercy in our life, that not only do we begin to heal but we draw others closer to our Lord. For too many years I had held my brokenness inside.

Prior to 2011, I have no doubt that I had spiritual blindness in my life. In 2014, I also, as a result of my MS, experienced physical blindness. Over time I have, through God’s grace, regained my spiritual sight and also by His grace I have regained some of my physical sight. In Matthew 9:31 we are told that the two blind men after being healed “spread word of him through all that land.” Now I want to do the same.

Each week I write what I believe God has placed on my heart. I believe He places these messages on my heart because He knows I need to pay heed to these things in my own life. I am simply sharing with you what He is sharing with me. I hope you find in the storehouse of my past writings, all of which can all be found here on the website, some spiritual wisdom, insights and inspirations. I am humbled that God would choose me, a sinner and a “broken door”, to be the one to write these weekly messages.

These lyrics from Amazing Grace summarize these past five years. “Amazing grace how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but now I’m found. Was blind but now I see.” There are so many renditions of Amazing Grace. Here is one of the ones I enjoy.

If you have spiritual blindness in your life or if you are trying to serve two masters like I was five years ago, I earnestly pray that you will turn back to Jesus Christ. I hope you have found something of worth in my writings. Without you the reader, this ministry would be of no value. I would love to receive an email from every reader today to let me know how the Holy Spirit touches you through these 4th Day Letters. Please remember to forward these weekly messages to your friends and family. May God bless you in a special way on this our 5th Anniversary.

Dear God, I thank you for these past five years. Your grace is so amazing. You continue to heal the blind every day. If it is in your will Father would you please bless me with the ability to write for many years to come, amen!


Financial Support

I want to thank everyone who helps to support our ministry financially. Some of you have made one time gifts while others make ongoing monthly contributions. Both are appreciated. I also want to extend a big thanks to the Valmark Global Gift Fund for their grant which will allow us to give 1,000 Broken Door books away to the poor and those in prison. Click here if you can help us.


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  1. Lori Sumerel on September 26, 2016 at 11:04 am

    Hi, Brian!

    Happy Anniversary!! Thank you for what you do and being a soldier for our Lord. I read your letters weekly and I’m blessed by your journey and your Holy Spirit inspired insights.

    Keep up the great work!!

    Your sister in Christ,
    Lori Sumerel

    • Brian Pusateri on September 26, 2016 at 11:31 am


      Thank you for your kind words. I pray that God’s blessings will be with today and always.


  2. Kevin Moravek on September 21, 2016 at 2:38 pm

    Wow! Has God ever jostled your life in the last 5 years. All for the better. I am still hangin’ in with Cursillo. I have taken over SOL here and will be the rector in Feb of the Men’s Weekend. I must say that your picture is MOST distinguished. I thank you for all you have done for Cusillo. I pray for your health. Keep on growing this ministry.



    • Brian Pusateri on September 21, 2016 at 5:37 pm


      Thanks for all you are doing in God’s vineyard. As to the picture ….who knows…..maybe it was photo shopped. Just kidding. Thanks for your kind words.


  3. Deborah Wadhams on September 20, 2016 at 5:21 pm

    Happy Anniversary! Thank you for being a light in our varied blindness!

    • Brian Pusateri on September 20, 2016 at 6:04 pm


      Thank you and may God bless you!


  4. Kevin McDonald on September 20, 2016 at 6:14 am

    Congratulations and thanks for five years of inspiration and devotion. Your devotions are a blessing and encouragement, as is your personal testimony. Thank you, for allowing God to use you, and your story to be a light to so many men living in a dark world. God bless!

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